People make mistakes.
I'm still a kid. I thought I've grown. I thought I don't need any supervision daripada sapa-sapa dah. I thought I can stand on my own feet and figure out life by myself.
I've let people down so many times. This time?
Worse.
I've been making mistakes, letting people down, pushing people away, hurting everyone no matter what they are to me.
All. My. Life.
Stop, Fazra. Clear your vision, sayang.
Look around.
How many people lagi kau nak kecewakan?
Berapa banyak lagi sakit kau nak kasi pada orang?
All faults are on me.
Leka. Lupa.
My apologize. From the bottom of my heart. From the deepest core of my heart. Sincerely, I apologize. Forgive me for I have done so many wrongs in my life. Forgive me for being crazily childish and stupid. Forgive me forgive me pleeeease forgive me for letting you down.
To Ayah and Mak. To Auntie. To you, Jaan.
I don't know what to think anymore. I don't even know what to feel.
I texted Jaan but I do understand he doesn't have the access untuk contact me.
Here I am in Cheras and there he is I-don't-know-how-much kilometers away from me.
Esok pulak akan jadik hundreds of kilometers apart.
:'(
Things happen, Jaan. Things had happened.
I really don't wanna give up on us. Honestly.
We'll talk bila kita jumpa ya? We'll talk.
We can make through this.
Things're harder now. But one thing you should know and never have doubt about it is that I love you for what you were before, what you are now and what you will be in the future.
We'll change for good. For God. For people around. For what's life gonna bring later.
But most importantly, we'll change because this means so much. And we don't come this far to let go. We're here to stay.
Right?
I'm sorry.
I know millions of sorries I give won't change anything.
But sorry is all I have now. I will make it up to you guys one day.
I promise.