Don't laa leave me with this kind of situation again.
Haih.
Don't leave me confused.
Don't leave me hanging.
Don't leave me waiting tak tentu arah tak tahu nak pergi mana.
Sebab it won't bring you, me atau sesapa anywhere because I will choose not to do anything because I don't wanna think about it sebab thinking buat kepala aku sesak. Ya knaw?
Rimas.
Walls that keep away the pain also keep out the joy, Fazra. I know, I know.
Aku pon taktahu kenapa aku buat post nieh. Mungkin sebab satu hari aku asyik dok terfikir? Sikit-sikit pop up. Not that aku tau apa aku nak buat. Or apa yang aku sedang buat. Atau apa yang aku patut buat, sampai aku dok terfikir sepanjang hari. Aku taktau nak buat apa pon.
Dan bila, being the Fazra yang korang kenal, ada perkara-perkara seperti ini berlaku, sesungguhnya takkan aku buat apa-apa -.-" Tangguh tangguh sampai sudah.
Mellow mellow dengan Nisa semalam dalam kereta.
Almost cried.
And said I don't want to be alone dekat Ilham.
Because mellow+being alone = A big No-no.
Lepas tuh she started talking which I don't mind.
Listen to people cakap-cakap somehow makes me very tenang. Weird.
And it's making me feel less lonely.
Kalau dekat Ilham? Dengan sorang-sorangnya, dengan laptop takdanya.
Sigh.
She said I'm a passive person.
I couldn't agree more. I am. When I want to.
I can be very optimist bila tiba waktunya. And I can be a goddamn pessimist juga.
Semalam was me being the 'the glass is half empty lahh!' punya type.
I did what I did sebab I thought since the spotlight isn't on me anymore I should just back off.
You know I'm not a fighter kan, Nisa?
I can't even fight this feeling to D. I miss him, I do :'( But I couldn't forget.
I couldn't pujuk myself. I don't wanna grow up hating D. You won't let me.
But he disappointed me big time. It feels different kalau orang lain yang buat.
It's from the only man I thought can save me, ya knaw?
And if I can't love D right, I cannot love anyone right.
That explains the walls. I guess?
Tapi I don't want any walls.
Sebab aku nak ... *sigh
I hate it when you reaaaaallly nak cakap but can't because takut it'll change everything.
Ah, malas fikir.
Maka, sebab rasa stressed.
Decide nak pergi karaoke. Panggil Mut. Excited lebih dia tuh. Hahah
Ajak Muaz. Can't make it sebab ada masalah.
Ajak Afa. Jumpa dekat sana. Bantai sampai dua puluh lagu.
Makan ABC Seksyen Dua. Aku dah addicted boleh --"
Tenang hati dan fikiran lepas nyanyi. Hahah.
Whenever I like someone & they like me I just end up convincing myself they’re lying. They just like playing with me & seeing my reactions. Laughing at me. They have a better girl that they’re with behind my back. Someone laughing at me with them. Someone waiting on them. You have someone better waiting on you, too, don’t you?
Berhenti kalau messing around dan saja suka-suka point utama kau.
I've had enough games dengan words dengan janji dengan hopes.