Tetiba start-start entry terus 'I am socially awkward'. Apa boleh tak. Hahah.
Dates usually ada awkward contacts, awkward conversations. So, as you can guess, I don't enjoy dates. Dates yang macam, in a restaurant. Pakai baju lawa-lawa. Bulu mata palsu bagaii. Cakap macam dalam kelambu. Errkk? Big freaking no with a huge capital letter of N at the front.
I'd rather pergi hiking ke, bungee jumping ke, cycling ke. And through the whole fun activities, we'll talk.
Do you get the concept?
I, in my entire life, sesungguhnya akan avoid awkward stuffs nieh. I don't usually sit berdua dengan lelaki. If I do, it's either aku cakap lebih or I don't talk at all. Because it's awkward krrkrr. Haha.
Eih awkward lah.
Dengan perempuan pun sering (sering blehhh) terjadi. I hate it bila my mind will awkwardly cari topic untuk cakap. Macam, eih awkward benor. Usually, kalau aku dah feeling awkward tuh I will come up with the most stupidest thing ever and akan ada fake laugh sana sini. You'll know when I'm fake-laughing if you listen veghi veghi carefully.
Entri ini sangat self-centered. Hahah.
Krr jom cakap pasal menda lain --"
Nad texted me cakap she terasa with me because I didn't reply her wallposts yang beratur dekat wall but I can reply to others'. *sigh
I didn't reply that one too.
Sebenarnya, I don't know what to do. I realize that I keep pushing her away and she keeps coming back and one day she's gonna stop coming for me. She's done it once, she'll do it again. Tapi, I don't know what I'm standing up for sekarang. Why didn't I reply her text right away? Why didn't I reply her wallposts, even?
I miss Nisa giving me ways. I miss her telling me that ego won't solve anything and truly, I believe this is me standing up for my stupid ego for only-God-knows-what reasons.
I guess right now she'd be telling me to.. reply Nad and tell her that I'm sorry after she asks me why I did that on the first place. Kan, Nisa?
Sounds pathetic enough, I shall go.