Tajuk entri bukan main panjang =="
Seriously, final's in two weeks or so and lazy day macam nieh can't happen to me sekarang. Haish. I don't know. Sekarang memang rasa nak malas jeh.
I'm tired of having to jaga everything. Relationships dengan semua orang. Having to wake up everyday and pergi buat whatever yang aku buat for the past eleven months of my life. It's tiring.
This is me feeling like giving up everything.
Some days I just feel like laying down on my bed all day. I don't want nobody, I don't want anything. I just want to lay down and be as lifeless as I can be.
But, life has its ups and downs, ey? Of course. What a boring life it would be.
Talking a lot sometimes helps me jugak in hiding things that I don't want people to know. Talking kadang-kadang spares me a place to escape from spilling about things that I don't want to share dengan orang.
Orang ingat aku takde masalah. Orang ingat aku happy memanjang. Padahal?
No matter how true I appear in front of everybody that I'm closed to, they never know what I'm thinking about before I go to bed. How I wish I'd said different things, how I wish I'd done it differently.
*sigh
I run from things.
I have problems, I run. I don't wanna face it.
I have to decide, I run.
I have to choose, I run.
I don't even know what I'm running from, what I'm actually searching for.
Aku suka baca blog orang yang selalu cerita dia buat apa satu hari tuh.
*tetiba
It's very cool, ya know. Macam very.. lively.
I don't know why I cannot do that here. Ada tapi tak banyak. I guess my life is that boring and sama jeh sampai tak tahu nak spill apa kan?
Here, I often cakap pasal what I'm thinking, apa yang aku rasa. And mostly sama jeh. So you can notice that I'm all mellow and benda sedih-sedih jeh semua. Haha.
Nak buat macam mana kan?
Blog is not an escape anymore lah. I should fine another medium to spill macam gilaa. Haha. Thank god aku dah delete semua posts lama *peace
I feel lazy todayy :/ I wanna sleep.
Till then, bai reader(s)!